Today is the day, 32 years ago, that fate was born and began to make its slow but eventual way to me. Does that sound weird or selfish, to call the birth of my husband a day of fate for me? Ah well...I can see it no other way, really. The truth is, it wasn't until I met Mark that I completely came into my own as the person I am today. In essence, his birth turned into my own renewal, one I am blessed to relive every day I am lucky enough to wake up by his safe, kind, loving side.
It's nearly impossible to explain how I truly feel about Mark (although I've tried) and I find it absolutely impossible to celebrate this day the way he deserves it to be celebrated. Every year I feel at a loss as to how to show him my appreciation for all he does and is to me. I'll ask him, "What do you want for your birthday?" and he always says, "Nothing!" He means it, too. Of course I never oblige - that would be wrong. This year, however, I asked him again: "What do you want for your birthday, babe?" and he - not skipping a beat - said, "A BABY!" I laughed and asked him if it was o.k. if I opened the gift for him this time. He didn't think that was going to be a problem.
And so, for the first time in all the years we've known each other, I finally feel like I'm prepared to give Mark something (someone!) that encompasses all that our love is and means to me. In a matter of days, a little person created solely by our admiration and dedication to one another will arrive into the world, giving us one more reason to redefine our love for each other with every day that passes. I imagine our love will only grow, get stronger, and have more meaning than it ever did before. My heart stands ready to stretch and beat to the rhythmic drum of this new awakening - a new fate, if you will. I see this as the best day of the year; it brought to me the person who has made my life infinitely greater in ways I never expected but also vow to never take for granted.
Happy birthday, baby. I love you...so much*.
*We both have '...so much' engraved into our wedding rings; thinking of the reason why always makes me smile.