Back in my mid-twenties, I would have given anything to wake up in the morning and think, "I have no desires today; today I am happy with exactly who I am and what I have in this precious life." Which, coincidentally, is exactly what I woke up thinking today, on my 34th birthday.
The thing is, all of the days I woke up wishing I had more or something different are the very reason why I can appreciate the amazing life I am living. I should really thank all those tear-filled days and those times filled with unanswered prayers, huh? Thank you, icky days and unknown times...because you happened, I am truly, finally able to see the beauty in the world around me.
I am married to my soul mate (the most amazing person) and just 9 weeks away from giving birth to a little person we created together... I have an incredibly loving and supportive family that has always given me reason to believe the world was my oyster and I could do anything I put my mind to... I have many wonderful friends who make me laugh and love me just the way I am... I have two of the sweetest dogs on Earth that make frantic little 'CLICK CLICK' noises as they excitedly dance on the wood floors when I get home from work, who shower me with smiles & messy kisses.... And, uh, I have wood floors, which means I actually have a HOME, a safe, warm (and cool - YAY!) home... I have a job to go to each day, one that is ending on the last day of this year, which will give me some of the much-needed time I crave to spend with our Chickpea, to take time to become the mom I have always dreamed of being... And, sure, I have a ton of material things that are pretty and useful, and I have the money - for now, anyway (if Chickpea is a girl, Lord help us!) - to spend on the things we need and want.
So, yeah. I don't need a single thing. A dear friend sent me a text message today that said, "Think of any kicks from Chickpea today as his/her way of saying, "Happy birthday mama, I love you!" And it made me smile from here to there. I'm loved, and kicked from the inside, and all is right in the world.